chrasy.com ; naive gravity means never falling

My name is Tracey. I love languages and I love the way that people communicate with each other. I love music and I'm a very bad driver which makes sense, since I'm Asian AND female. I live quietly, but my life is often full of brilliant sparks and happy moments. Let me share them with you.

only.

So the past week has been work, work, party, party, party, pack, pack.

I’m starting: to feel uncomfortable.
I already: feel worried, nervous and worst of all, subdued. I know I said I wasn’t anxious before, but hey now, I move tomorrow. I’m not calm, I’m clammy.

I’ve packed up as much stuff as is logical to take to Sydney. Unfortunately logic prevents me from squashing all of my friends and possessions into a car and re-planting them in city cement.

It’s just me, only me. I’m scared, I’m scared, I’m scared, I’m scared.

Posted 3 weeks ago in text. edit.

progression.

So, I’m moving out on the 22nd and it doesn’t quite make sense to me. I feel neither anxious nor excited; it simply seems to be a natural progression. I felt worse when I was trying to find a place to stay, I didn’t feel anything when I chose my lectures and tutorials and I sure as hell don’t feel like packing right now.

Posted 1 month ago in text. edit.

identity.

[If it doesn’t go, then it doesn’t become, and it transforms into a must]

I think that certain things have become expected of me and whatever identity I have created. I’m trying to divorce myself from these expectations. A little distance between me, and what they think I am, would be quite nice right about now.

Posted 1 month ago in text. edit.

creepster returns!

  • Creep: Hello Tracey
  • Me: Errr.... Hello.
  • Creep: I'd er, like to make a booking for Wednesday.
  • Me: Okay.
  • Creep: I will thoroughly peruse your menu then, on the Wednesday, the 17th of February 2010.
  • Me: ....Okay, I'll just put you in
  • Creep: Because last time I didn't really look at the menu.
  • Me: That's all right.
  • Creep: What are those on the walls there? They look like, like, l-l-l-like...
  • Me: They're tigers. Because it's the year of the tiger. Chinese New Year is on Sunday.
  • Creep: That's the same day as Valentines Day! Now, tell me Tracey, you don't have to elaborate on this but what are your plans for Valentines day?
  • Me: I have to go now. *hides in kitchen*

Posted 1 month ago in chat. edit.