Renewal
So it’s been said that Spring is a time for new growth, rebirth, reincarnation, anything to do with starting anew, Spring’s associated with it. I myself feel in need of a renewal as well. In every aspect of my life, there are little things that aren’t going the way I want them to. I’m going to push them in the right direction, one step at a time. I can’t place deadlines on myself, because I always believe I can complete things the night before the deadline, but these things I want to change aren’t the types of things I can pull off overnight.
I can’t strengthen my relationship with my mother overnight. I can’t get fit overnight. I can’t stop being angry at other people overnight. But I can try to do it all gradually, eventually. By then, I’ll have more things to complain about and change, but until then, I might just take it one step at a time. Starting with my English assignment…
On a completely unrelated topic, having old people raise you sucks sometimes. They die before they get to see you as an adult. They move away to be with their “real” families. They can’t run around chasing you and playing with you. The good almost outweighs the bad (the ultimate bad being death, which fucks you up). It’s fantastic that they have so much knowledge that they can bestow on you. They know how little children click, they know how to make kiddies calm down. ETA Oh my god, I’ve said all this before in that previous post.
Auntie Dot was one such person who watched me grow up, giving me a prod or two. She had (actually, still has) a foul mouth, a fucking fantastic sense of humour and is always laughing at me. Yesterday I think I might’ve seen her for the last time. She’s moving away for “time with her family”. She has cataracts, her hair is thinning and is completely grey. “I really do love you, you know,” she told me as we hugged.
“I love you too.”
# Bryce, 2 years, 2 months ago.
I totally agree, I remember this comedian commenting on some 62-yr old who gave birth through IVF: “She was a child psychologist, that’ll come in handy when she dies when he’s 12″
# Boris, 2 years, 2 months ago.
Well it does mean that winter’s dead for another year. So to hell with cold, and with hell comes burning infernos and glorious heat. Ahem. I mean, thankyou sun for your beautiful warmth. And when Summer comes… who shall be laughing then…
# Amber, 2 years, 2 months ago.
Oh, I love the spring. Unfortunately where I am at we are headed to Autumn (which I love too)… but the extremes… Winter and Summer are just not fun for me. I think I have poor circulation, which means my fingers and feet turn purple/blue. In summer I loudly complain to anyone who will listen (or will just be there) that I hate the heat. With Spring I feel all envigorated to do good and actually get my butt into action. Which is good because when it gets to summer I tend to do nothing.
I wouldn’t know about having elderly relatives - my mum had me when she was 16, so I’ve always be surrounded by young people so I can never fully appreciate what that would be like.
# Jordie, 2 years, 2 months ago.
:o! TRACEY USED DA F WORD. (Well, I don’t really care. I hear much worse at home.)
I have never had elderly people around me. My mother never knew her father, her mother died before I had a chance to meet her, as did my dad’s father. The only grandparent I have left is my dad’s mother, who I’m not all that close to, unfortunately. I have never really felt that closeness some people do with their grandma and grandpa. We’ve never been a really family-oriented bunch of people in my household… no get-togethers or anything like that. But I’ve never known any different, really.
# Jon, 2 years, 2 months ago.
I too have never had elderly people raise me, nor have I been around them very much. Most of my grandparents died before I was born, and I only had my two grandmothers growing up. One is still around, but I don’t see much or her. Auntie Dot seems like the kind of person people would love to have in their family. Is she?
# irina, 2 years, 1 month ago.
It’s life!!! Someone is borned, another dies!!! Everything in our world moves spiral and we are not in power to change something!! Unfortunately!!! But the main rule of the life is: after winter comes spring and after “spring” comes “winter” (you understand what I’m talking about!) !!! As for me, when I feel myself very bad and pessimistic, I make a trip somewhere to rise mood and gain new impressions and pleasant emotions!!! I see that it’s hadr on your soul now; may be you’ll change the environment?! :) Good luck to you!